Interestingly enough, I didn't learn ballet as a discipline in my 6th grade Dance class (I believe some techniques though):
I would mimic ballet poses from posters in my 6th grade Dance class though. Maybe I'm self-taught (I'm pretty flexible).
BTW, there's nothing sad about self-exploration.
Have you wrote about your experiences with cultural dancing? I freestyle, so it's possible that I incorporate elements from other types of dance. 💃